Cry Me a River

My loss is incalculable
And no,
it won’t get better
with time
It’s the same
She’s not here
And I am
Shipwrecked

I was too young
a man, but a boy
floating down a river
of despair
on a broken raft
hand in the water
of my own tears
Cry me a river

My grief is omnipotent
Never letting me go
even when I am hiding from it
deep below the surface
of normalcy
My smile fake
My heart aches
Plunge me into that
cold river
and drown my sorrows
along with my shell

Submerged
beneath my own water
the kind that pours
from my eyes
and won’t stop
until the river runs free
and easy
into a basin full of
melancholy droplets
Cry me a river

Open my soul
to reveal less
A distinct vacancy
in my being
A drought
grows inside of me
Until the rain comes
and a river is made
Rushing
water

Sinking down
deeper and darker
I hold my breath
but not my tears
For as I take my last breath
I cry me a river
one last time